Today we saw Dr Westerkam again. He is just such a great doctor and very caring. He is going to try to get me an appointment with University specialists and a neurologist there. He did say he felt I would be further along than I am and that I do need continued physical therapy. I walked for him and showed him the progress I have made which he was pleased with but still feels I should be further along than I am. He did a brief physical check nothing major and will be back in touch regarding the neurologist. He also said for me to check with my cardiologist to see how he feels about me doing physical therapy because it would have to be outpatient now that home therapy has discharged me. I may have to be discharged from the home health nurse in order to do the outpatient therapy but we are not sure about that yet. She is going to check with her manager to see. Since she is just checking my vitals weekly there may be no reason to continue that.

I did fall again today scarped my knees a little but nothing major. My back and tail bone continue to be in major pain along with the left foot and skins.

Then, there is my job. Right now they have me approved through July 5th but my doctor's appointments are with the cardiologist on the 6th, family doctor on the 7th and counselor on the 8th so I may have to take PTO to make those appoinments. I am going to talk with my counselor tomorrow. I feel returning part time for a while is the best way to go and my doctors have said the same thing. We will just have to see how that plays out. I expect there will be issues when I first return but I will overcome them as I always to. I am just ready mainly because I am tired of fighting. If my body is giving up then so be it. At least I'll go out with dignity and my family can say they knew he tried. I'm young and still have some fight in me but I'm also tired and just want to know my family is taken care of and their lives will be ok. I sound like I am writing my last will don't I!! LOL. But, if I can get back to work and do physical therapy at least twice a week then that will be fine. The problem still remains those tremors. They usually don't hit unless I wake up or have some kind of excitment that I did not expect. I will have to get clearance from my doctor about driving and also about my limitations.