Today was such a beautiful day and the weather was so nice so I decided to open all the windows in the house. Luckily our windows are chest high for me so I don't have to bend down or over to open them. It was nice to have the fresh air in.

I felt a little light headed and dizzy throughout the morning but I didn't feel any chest pains or PVC's So I just decided to not worry about it. I got some rest and then the girls got home. Cottia had her homework to do and Eva played with her baby dolls. My mother and her husband came by for a visit which was nice and then Cottia had a scrimmage. I wasn't sure about going but I really wanted to be there. Eva had decided she was going so I went too.

Cottia didn't play much but she did get a bat. She managed to get a foul tip but not on base. But, I don't think it really matters to her. She just wants to be out there and to be with her friends. She seems so happy and really enjoys softball. I was glad to be there and to enjoy the game and my oldest girl as she plays.

After the game was over I went ahead because it takes me a little longer to get to the car given that I have to use the walker. Eva went with me. There is a step off to the parking lot and I fell as I stepped off. I was very embarrassed and felt ashamed that this happened. Eva was upset but luckily Maw Maw and Paw Paw were there so they took her as I began the tremor that always accompanies one of the falls. I also have learned how to fall so I don't hurt myself like I used to. They call it a controled fall. Some gentlemen were good enough to wait with me until I was under contol then Emily backed the van up and I got in. I didn't feel very much pain but I am now beginning to feel it. I know I mainly fell on the left side and that is where the main part of the pain is. I have a headache which I am sure is coming from the tremors and the ringing in my ears are off the scale right now. But, I am home now and sitting in my chair.

I just want to be able to do things with my girls and not to embarrass them or scare them. It hurts so much that I scare them and that they have to worry about their father when they should be living carefree lives. I'm not sure why I continue to go through all this but I know God has a plan.

Well, I want to end on a good note so let me just say that Cottia's team won the scrimmage 3-0 and she was so happy and proud. Eva continues to grow and her hair is so beautiful.

Tomorrow is counseling day and I am looking forward to it and continuing to get better.

So, once again, I pray God's blessings on you all and that he will pour our his grace on your lives. Have a great evening and again, God bless.

t

Yesterday was Sunday and with Emily being sick it fell to me to take the girls and Jason to Church. It was an awesome service but I did notice the vocal tremors were worse than normal. Not sure what is going on with that. I felt tired but nothing out of the ordinary for me. Then, last night, chest pains started again and the ringing in my ear is really getting bad. But, there seems to be very little to nothing they can do about that. I sometimes feel like it is going to drive me crazy.

Today Emily seems better but still not 100% so please be praying for her. Jason is retaking the ASVAB test and the girls went to school. The chest pains continued for me today but right now they have let up some so I am thinking I just had another angina attack. But, I didn't go to the doctor. I'm just tired of throwing money at something that seems to be benign. If it is not, then I guess we will find out soon enough.

Last night Phantom of the Opera was on ETV. Eva sat with me to listen to some of the music. She really loves good music and I really want to help her develop that. Who knows maybe she will be the one in the family that takes music to the next level.

Well, I'm waiting on the family to get home and I love that time with them. As always, I pray God's blessings on you all and that his grace will flow to you like never before.

t

Well, I have to add some to today's blog. The pain has now started to set in. I am feeling PVC's in my heart and my legs especially the left is in a lot of pain. So, I guess I am going to pay the price for a good day. I'll see how the night goes but right now even my vision is a bit fuzzy. Still, today was a wonderful day and while I may pay a price for it tonight, I am thankful for the day I had. So, this an addition to todays blog and still my hope and prayer is that God will richly bless you all.

t

Well, this is the 400 post! I can't believe it. But, today was the best day I have had in a very long time. I got to go fishing this morning and this time I was able to take both my girls and Jason. Eva was so cute. I had bought her a little pole that has those fake fish and stars and things like that. She was so proud when she threw her line in the water. I bragged on her and said she was the only one that could say she caught something everytime she threw the line in the water.

Troy and Jacob came down and seemed to also have a good time. I caught a really nice bass and just being outside was wonderful. It wore me out but it was worth it. I really enjoyed the fellowship with Troy and his son and my girls and Jason.

We didn't stay all that long because I can only take so much and I was worn out so we came home about noon and I took a long nap. I feel rested but am so glad that I can report that this was a great day for me. I have not had many lately and am glad I had this one.

On another note, Emily is really sick with all the pollen and allergies. I feel so bad for her. She is coughing and her chest is sore from the coughing and I just pray she feels better soon.

Well, that is about it. I'm glad we had this day and hope we have many more like it in the very near future.

So, once again, I pray God's richest blessing on you all and that his grace will fill your lives with love and mercy. Don't forget to go to Church tomorrow and praise his name.

t

The last two days have been really hard. I continue to be dizzy and light headed but I have not had any real chest pain the past two days so I am not sure what is going on. I just want it better. I'm worried about driving and yet I have to from time to time.

Emily is at work and the girls are at school and life is continuing. I just want all this to be over so hopefully when we go to Charleston in 2 weeks we will really begin to heal. I've also noticed that I am feeling weaker and having more headaches.

It is amazing to me that I actually want to go back to work and yet my life just seems to be on hold right now. I can only hope that things are going to get better. I do seem to have good days and bad days it is just that the bad days outweigh the good days. Again, hopefully that will change.

Well, that is about it for today. I'm very tired and feel very weak so I'm going to try to get some rest. I hope and pray God will bless you all in his special way and that you will feel his grace at all times. Have a great day!

t

Last night was pretty rough. I had to take my nitro spray twice and the chest pain was really intense. In fact, I would go so far as to say it was the worst I have had. I have been having a lot of PVC'S lately and I wonder if that has anything to do with it. But, after taking the nitro I got the normal headache which comes with nitro. That is why I hate taking it so much. But, I did finally fall asleep and rested until it was time to get up this morning.

I had physical therapy today. I really enjoy the PT and think it is good for me to get out of the house. But, the therapist said we have hit a wall and there really isn't anything more they can do. He said they all saw how hard I worked and tried but I have reached my potential and maybe I will make more progress with the neuro psychologist in Charleston. I have mixed feelings about it. I will miss going there but it also makes me feel good that they notice just how hard I work. They did say I can come back if necessary after I have been treated in Charleston. There is another good side to this in that gas prices are so high and not having to make the trip twice a week will certainly help on bills.

I'm obviously back home now and they sent me a sheet of paper with exerciese they want me to continue at home so it gives me something to do.

Well, that is about it. I look forward to Emily and the girls getting home and pray God will richly bless each of you in a special way.

t

I haven't blogged in a few days but decided that I needed to today. Today has been a very hard day. The alarm went off so I got Emily up to get ready for work then reset the alarm to get up for the girls but I set it two hours ahead instead of 1. Needless to say we were rushed. But, the biggest problem was how disoriented I was. I was trembling and having some trouble speaking. I almost fell several times but thankfully I didn't. Emily was very insistant that I get on the walker no matter what. I am not sure why but I was exhausted. Emily and the girls left for the day and I was left alone. I was nervous because I wasn't sure what was going on. The ringing in my ears is 10 times worse today and even now I am shaking and feel weak. I did manage a shower but not much more.

When the girls got home Eva and I watched some of Rio while Cottia did her homework. Then, after supper Cottia came and sat on my lap and she and I watched some of Rio as well.

Really that is about it other than I am really having PVC'S and my back is in a lot of pain. I just feel so weak and I don't know why. I hope I'm not getting that virus that has been going around. I guess we will see.

Well, that is about it. I pray God's richest blessing on you all and that he will pour out his mercies on you all. Have a great night!

t