I went to my surgeon's office today. The pain is increasing and not getting any better. They said that I should not be surprised at the amount of pain I am in as they had to go up a ways to do the surgery. I just did not expect it to last this long. When they did the rectum exam I thought I was going to die. The pain was the most intense I have ever experienced. Tonight it is very intense but there really is very little I can do. They did say I appear to have a tear in the area which is contributing to all of this but again there is just nothing that can be done. We did discuss the pain medicine and that it just does not seem to be helping so I am going to stop taking it. It is causing constapation and really does very little with the pain issue so there is no reason to continue it. The down side is the pain will probably get worse before it gets better. I called my manager and my disability specialist. My manager said not to worry that a few more weeks will probably make all the difference. The disability specialist asked a lot of questions but will fax the request for medical information. I called the surgeon's office and made it clear it is vitally important that they respond as quickly as possible which I believe they will. They have been very good about working with my disability folks on this matter. There is always the chance the extension will be denied but there is medical documentation to extend so hopefully it won't be a problem. I really need to return as my pay has been reduced 30% now and that does make a difference in our lives. Fortunently, God has provided for us and we are ok. There is also always the chance I could lose my job but given the assurance I have from my manager I really don't think that will happen either. I am truly blessed as far as all of that goes. I am going to call my personal gastro to see if he will see me and check me. I trust him very much and feel I could use the second medical opinion as to exactly where I am.

I lost another 3lbs according to their scales!

My heart also continues to be a concern as I continue to struggle with PVC episodes.