Today the spams hit as I expected them to. When I had a bowel movement this morning it was rough as it had been a while. That usually triggers the spasms. But, it is over now and I move on. I actually feel ok this afternoon. So, each day does seem to be getting better. I am so grateful to actually have some days that are pretty good. I feel like my days are wasted for the most part and that is really starting to worry me. I have a history of depression and I wonder if some of that is setting back in. I don't feel depressed but it can creep up on you without you really noticing.

My disability called today and it now appears I am transitioning to long term disability if I stay out until March 6th. After that it moves to long term. That will mean a new examiner even if it is for only a few days. She seems nice and we have an interview scheduled tomorrow morning at 9am. I called my short term examiner today and she said she had not received the office treatment note from the doctor's office but I called the doctor's office and they assured me they have faxed it and have a confirmation. They were going to fax again just to be on the safe side. They read me the letter they had transcribed for the disability specialist and it certainly leaves no doubt about my condition so there should not be a problem.

So, another day and time moves on. The good news is I am starting to have days where I feel good more and more. I actually am beginning to believe this entire ordeal is ending. It now is just a matter of regaining control of those muscles.