Today is one day closer to the surgery. Everything seems to be set. I have my disability approved and all the preop stuff is scheduled. Now it is just a matter of waiting. So many regrets. If only I had taken control before my weight got so far out of hand I would not be facing what I am facing. The one thing I have proven over the past few months. I have lost 41lbs. I have reduced my waist line. I am improving my health and all of this without the surgery. I feel I need to go through it though for Emily and the girls. So, on to the future and God's will.