Yesterday I had PVC episodes throughout the day. Last night I had an especially rough one. So far this morning I have not had any. But, I am heading back to my cardiologist this morning. I find myself torn. I want to go back to work but don't feel I am ready. I really want some answers before I go back. I feel I need that peace of mind. I will post again later once I have gotten my report from the doctor.

I woke this morning feeling pretty good. I decided to take a walk so I walked from our house to hwy 321 and back which was about .25 of a mile. Not very far. The walk itself was great. It felt good being out and I didn't have any problems. But, when I got home and sat down I had a spell of PVC for about 5 minutes. It was scary and I thought about calling 911. But, I decided to call my cardiologist. They said for me not to walk again until the doctor has a chance to see me. The nurse was going to check with him to see what he thought. I am scheduled to see him Friday but that may change depending on what he thinks. I am still waiting to hear back from them. I have had more PVC episodes throughout the afternoon but they have not been as bad as the one earlier. Everytime I have one though it is unnerving.

I am doing much better when it comes to being able to get nutrician in though.

They are also considering how to proceed with disability.

My left shoulder is swollen like a grapefruit and it is painful. So, I went to my cardiologist today. They said it will get better that I just have to remember I have been through a lot in a month and it is just going to take time. I am still so tired but again they said just give it time. I guess I am trying to make this all happen to fast. I am so anxious about returning to work next week. I want to go back but am I truly ready? Right now, I don't think so and neither does the doctor. But, it will probably be good for me to have my daily routine again. The removed the bandage and gave me some new pads to put on the wound. I am also to stop taking bystolic and return to diovan. I go back Friday and we will make a final decision about returning to work and where we go from here. On a bright note, I had lost another 3lbs. My new jeans are already lose which is an incredible feeling. I don't plan to lose a lot more weight but I just want to make sure I maintain what I have accomplished. After the doctor appointment, I went on a quest and found some ice cream I can have. I can't wait to get into it. Right now, I am living off soup and puddings and protein. All in all that isn't too bad. I am so grateful to everyone who continues to pray for me and to worry about me. I had a true example of friendship today as a friend came over and cut our grass. He showed me true love. So many people have offered to help and we are so grateful. God's people coming through when we need them.

I thought this was going to be a better day but it wasn't. I went to visit my mom and all I did was to drive down there. After I left I stopped by for a few groceries and then came home. I was completely exhausted. I wonder if the pacemaker is too slow. My left shoulder is in quite a bit of pain and I have some swelling. I called my cardiologist and hope to hear back from them tomorrow. I have not had a bowel movement since Thursday so something is wrong there as well. I just can't get my energy back and wonder how much longer this will go on. I feel so discouraged right now. But, I am not going to give up. My girls and wife are counting on me and I love them too much to give up.

Today is the Lord's day and homecoming at my Church. 175 years of serving God and spreading the gospel. I got up and showered to go. I felt pretty good other than the soreness in my shoulder. People were so kind and concerned. I felt their love and it really made me feel special. I suppose we all need to feel that from time to time. My mother in law left this morning so the real test will begin as we have to take care of things without her help. She has been invaluable over the last few days taking care of the girls. As Sunday school went along I became more and more tired. I tried to stay for worship but just could not. I am so wiped out right now. I got a good nights sleep and thought this was behind me. Hopefully it is just a 1 day event. I plan to rest this afternoon and hopefully start walking tomorrow. We will see.

Happy birthday Sardis Baptist!

Today was a pretty good day. I didn't do very much so I didn't have any stress to deal with. I did have some pains in the chest that radiated to my neck but it passed. There was also a small pain in my left shoulder but it also went away. Right now, I feel pretty good and hope I have really turned a corner. I am thinking I may go to Church tomorrow. It is homecoming and I really want to go but I don't expect to stay for the meal after. On the weight issue, my mom made some squash soup which was very good! I was able to get a lot of it in and it did not make me feel sick or nauseated. I ate a small amount of mashed potatoes but mostly I have sipped on the soup. I also am getting sugar free popcicles in my system. I have not decided weather to go back for an adjustment. I am so disappointed in the way my surgery center has handled things that I may consider finding another center for my follow up appointments. Don't get me wrong, the surgery center did a lot arranging everything and making the surgery happen but they have yet to follow up with me which makes me think their only interest was making the money on the surgery and not my actual well being. I am not sure I want that as a part of my care. I really want a doctor that has my best interest at heart which I know I have with my cardiologist. I have done all the contacting when it comes to the bariatric center and on several occasions they have not even bothered to call me back. When I called them about the issue with my mouth they said it was thrush without even seeing me. I had the doctor check it out at the hospital and she said it was not thrush. So, I have been taking something that I did not need which really frustrates me. That is just one example of how my surgery center has not given me the type of care I feel I deserved. I even called an office manager last week twice and have yet to hear back from her. I know folks are busy but come on. If I do decide to have an adjustment, it will probably be only once. I don't feel I need to lose very much more weight and right now, I am happy with where I am and the foods I can eat. I truly feel I have been given a second chance at life with the pacemaker and the weight I have lost. I will make a decision on how to proceed with the surgery center next week.

this blog will be short as my left arm is really sore and hard to use. the pacemaker is in and working great. For the first time I can remember I don't feel my heart beating. It is just like it isn't there. I am tired but really believe this is going to be a turning point in my life. I have lost another 3lbs so the weight loss continues. God is so faithful and his mercy always amazes me. I am scheduled to be off work for 1 more week. I have a follow up appointment with my cardiologist Friday and hopefully he will allow me back to work. Bottom line, the pacemaker may be the best thing that has happened to me.